I proposed her to marry me. She didn't accept my proposal, she was reluctant to accept it because she was a prostitute once, she didn't want me to know that, but when I forced her to accept my proposal she revealed it after a series of conversations, phone calls and messages. She told me that she was neither ready to love anyone nor ready to marry anyone.
Despite having a soft corner for me, she didn't give her consent. I don't know when I started to love her and I don't know how I mustered courage to propose her, but everything happened just like that. We met in the park that we were used to meeting. When she revealed that she was a sex worker for some time, she broke down with tears and left the place,I had never seen her like that in the last five years since the time I saw her first.
That moment I regretted my decision to propose her, not because she was a prostitute but because I made her to feel for it. I didn't get any message or call from her for the next three weeks. I didn't know if she would continue as a friend at the least. I didn't call or texted her out of compunction. On the 22nd day I received a message, she wanted to meet me in the same park that evening by 6 O' clock. I went there by 4 O' clock despite having an important meeting and was thinking what the reason would be.
She came there running by 6.15 and hugged me immediately and started weeping, I didn't know how to respond. Everyone around us started to look at us. I told her that everyone was looking at us so relax. She removed her hands around me and stayed feet away from me and started sobbing. I guided her to a stone bench nearby and made her to sit, she leaned on my shoulder and continued sobbing. I asked her to stop sobbing and tell me what happened many times but she didn't stop, it took 15 minutes for her to stop sobbing and another 10 minutes to talk to me. She started to talk slowly.
She said to me " I went to an orphanage yesterday to celebrate a friend's birthday, it was around 7.30 when I reached the orphanage. Children of all age groups were playing some games in the ground and some guests were sitting in a hall. My friend received me, took me to the hall and gave me a chair to sit, in the mean time she was busy with her phone to receive other guests and making arrangements for food and other things. I was sitting near a window and watching outside, I saw a girl about 3 years sleeping on a bench beneath a tree when others were playing. She was looking very cute so I went out of the hall and sit beside her, she was sleeping sound, I lifted her and made her to sleep on my lap and started to brush her hair with my hands. I had a strange thought running in my mind, I felt as if I had some connection with her, I sat there like that for the next half an hour. My friend called me to come for cake cutting, I kissed the girl on her cheek and tried to wake her up but she didn't wake up. A staff from the orphanage told me that she would wake up only after 8.30 moreover she came here only before 5 days, if you wake up she would start to cry and it would be hard to pacify her so, don't wake her up now. I didn't want to leave her there and go. I said okay after making my mind, made her to lie on the bench again and kissed her again to reach the hall halfheartedly to see my friend cutting the cake.
Children were assembled in the hall sitting in rows on the floor, the guests stood on either side of a table in which the cake was kept, the candles on the cake were lit and she was told to blow the candles off by the guardian of the orphanage, she did so and everyone in the hall wished her and sang happy birthday in chorus.she cut the cake, fed me and few people close to her and distributed to the children and staff in the hall, after sometime we were taken to a dining hall to eat dinner. I checked the time it was 8.30, so I thought of waking the girl at least to make her eat the dinner, so I went to the bench once again and tried to wake her up but she didn't wake up. So, I walked towards the dining hall and served the food to the children in the dining hall, I I was busy serving the food for the next few minutes but the thought of the girl didn't go away from my mind. I heard a girl crying loudly, my instinct told me it was her so, I ran to her and lifted in my hands and hugged her tightly against my chest, she held my neck with both her hands and I started to cry for her. I was trying to stop her crying but I couldn't, a lady staff came to me and asked me to give the girl to her because she would cry for about half an hour, but I didn't want to give the girl to the staff. The lady tried to separate us but the girl held me tightly and didn't want to leave me, after sometime she stopped crying and started sobbing and murmuring maa....maa....maa.....continuously, I felt her heart beating fast against mine, I started sobbing with her inconsolably and told her not to cry, I felt each and every heart beat of her, it slowed down gradually and started to beat almost simultaneously with mine. I felt like the time was standing still and my heart became light. She was resting her head in my shoulder and murmuring maa....maa...I didn't move anywhere, I was angry on god for causing such difficulties to young lives. Many thoughts were running in my mind with tears flowing down my cheeks. My friend came there and called me to have some food for which I nod my head in negative trying to control my tears. She tried to console me but only to fail. Finally, the guardian of the orphanage came to me and spoke to me, he told me that I was not the first person to feel like that, we do not have certain things in our control, give her to the staff they will take care of her. After thinking for sometime I gave her to the staff member, I asked him if I could adopt her for which he said yes you could but there are formalities for that,I saw her attachment for you, she must have found some sort of solace in you, she lost everyone in her family in an accident when she was in her relative's home, they admitted her here since they were not able to take care of her, you should be able to spend time for her, you might have got affected temporarily but you should be able to care for her life long otherwise it will not be fruitful, If you wish you could come here daily and spend some time with her and get close to her then we shall see. I stayed there for the next one hour fed the girl some food and made her to sleep again. My friend forced me to eat something but I didn't feel like that so I said sorry and left the orphanage".
I was crying all night and I couldn't fall asleep. I was thinking how I would be able to bring her up alone that too if I go for a job, would it be possible for me to spend time with her?. Then, I thought about your proposal, I didn't reject your proposal purposefully, my life took unexpected turns when my father died in an accident, I had to shoulder my family when I was 19, I dropped out of college and took up a job but earnings from my job was not sufficient to support my family so I was forced to take up prostitution but it was not an easy thing to do, it tested my patience, my physical and mental strength. Till then I was thinking that men would be gentle but the way they used me and the language they used changed my perception about men after I entered that world, drunk men looking at me as a pleasure vending machine, most of them behaved like beasts. I was deeply hurt, each passing day was like a journey in the hell. I like you, in fact I love you, but I don't want you to suffer in your life. you are rich, intelligent,smart and gentle, no girl would reject your proposal except me. I have lost interest in sex, I don't think I will be able to satisfy your needs, you have to sacrifice certain things in life but you deserve a better life,post marriage, if any of your friends or family member comes to know my past we will be in a predicament, you find a girl another of your choice, get married and live happily. I just need you to support me financially, give me job in your company with work from home option to adopt the girl that I met in the orphanage . Could you do that?.
Have you forgotten everything that happened?. you are so special to me because you gave this man a new lease of life, when no one was ready to help me when I didn't have anything to eat and lying on a roadside for about 36 hours after fainting, you came forward and helped me, admitted me in a hospital and helped me to regain my lost life. you spoke to me a lot to overcome loneliness, consoled me and gave me confidence to come out of the situation. you arranged a place for me to stay, arranged a job for me to survive on my own. I may be a successful business man now, but Without you, I would not be alive today. you have become everything for me, every other person in my life is after you. I am able understand everything now, I thought you didn't love me, I thought that I have mistaken you, I liked the way you cared for me, you were with me during my testing times but when it is time to enjoy the fruits of my labor, you are moving away from me. Sex is just for reproduction if there was no need for reproduction, if men and women were created to be immortal there would not have existed a thing called sex. I think human beings have reproduced enough. I don't think I will not be able to live without having sex. All I have to offer you is love, pure, pristine love, there is no place for lust in that, you are the purpose of my, I will do anything for you, I swear that I will be able to heal your past wound. I just want to be with you even if that means losing every other thing that I have. Come we shall get married adopt her and shower her with the love she is longing for. Don't speak anything, I don't think that there is any other thing to speak further. Give me your consent lets start our journey with her.
She gave me her consent after that, we have been married for 3 three years. Our daughter Aaradhana is 6 years old now. we are a family of three and living a life filled with love and joy.
Thank you for reading..........
Despite having a soft corner for me, she didn't give her consent. I don't know when I started to love her and I don't know how I mustered courage to propose her, but everything happened just like that. We met in the park that we were used to meeting. When she revealed that she was a sex worker for some time, she broke down with tears and left the place,I had never seen her like that in the last five years since the time I saw her first.
That moment I regretted my decision to propose her, not because she was a prostitute but because I made her to feel for it. I didn't get any message or call from her for the next three weeks. I didn't know if she would continue as a friend at the least. I didn't call or texted her out of compunction. On the 22nd day I received a message, she wanted to meet me in the same park that evening by 6 O' clock. I went there by 4 O' clock despite having an important meeting and was thinking what the reason would be.
She came there running by 6.15 and hugged me immediately and started weeping, I didn't know how to respond. Everyone around us started to look at us. I told her that everyone was looking at us so relax. She removed her hands around me and stayed feet away from me and started sobbing. I guided her to a stone bench nearby and made her to sit, she leaned on my shoulder and continued sobbing. I asked her to stop sobbing and tell me what happened many times but she didn't stop, it took 15 minutes for her to stop sobbing and another 10 minutes to talk to me. She started to talk slowly.
She said to me " I went to an orphanage yesterday to celebrate a friend's birthday, it was around 7.30 when I reached the orphanage. Children of all age groups were playing some games in the ground and some guests were sitting in a hall. My friend received me, took me to the hall and gave me a chair to sit, in the mean time she was busy with her phone to receive other guests and making arrangements for food and other things. I was sitting near a window and watching outside, I saw a girl about 3 years sleeping on a bench beneath a tree when others were playing. She was looking very cute so I went out of the hall and sit beside her, she was sleeping sound, I lifted her and made her to sleep on my lap and started to brush her hair with my hands. I had a strange thought running in my mind, I felt as if I had some connection with her, I sat there like that for the next half an hour. My friend called me to come for cake cutting, I kissed the girl on her cheek and tried to wake her up but she didn't wake up. A staff from the orphanage told me that she would wake up only after 8.30 moreover she came here only before 5 days, if you wake up she would start to cry and it would be hard to pacify her so, don't wake her up now. I didn't want to leave her there and go. I said okay after making my mind, made her to lie on the bench again and kissed her again to reach the hall halfheartedly to see my friend cutting the cake.
Children were assembled in the hall sitting in rows on the floor, the guests stood on either side of a table in which the cake was kept, the candles on the cake were lit and she was told to blow the candles off by the guardian of the orphanage, she did so and everyone in the hall wished her and sang happy birthday in chorus.she cut the cake, fed me and few people close to her and distributed to the children and staff in the hall, after sometime we were taken to a dining hall to eat dinner. I checked the time it was 8.30, so I thought of waking the girl at least to make her eat the dinner, so I went to the bench once again and tried to wake her up but she didn't wake up. So, I walked towards the dining hall and served the food to the children in the dining hall, I I was busy serving the food for the next few minutes but the thought of the girl didn't go away from my mind. I heard a girl crying loudly, my instinct told me it was her so, I ran to her and lifted in my hands and hugged her tightly against my chest, she held my neck with both her hands and I started to cry for her. I was trying to stop her crying but I couldn't, a lady staff came to me and asked me to give the girl to her because she would cry for about half an hour, but I didn't want to give the girl to the staff. The lady tried to separate us but the girl held me tightly and didn't want to leave me, after sometime she stopped crying and started sobbing and murmuring maa....maa....maa.....continuously, I felt her heart beating fast against mine, I started sobbing with her inconsolably and told her not to cry, I felt each and every heart beat of her, it slowed down gradually and started to beat almost simultaneously with mine. I felt like the time was standing still and my heart became light. She was resting her head in my shoulder and murmuring maa....maa...I didn't move anywhere, I was angry on god for causing such difficulties to young lives. Many thoughts were running in my mind with tears flowing down my cheeks. My friend came there and called me to have some food for which I nod my head in negative trying to control my tears. She tried to console me but only to fail. Finally, the guardian of the orphanage came to me and spoke to me, he told me that I was not the first person to feel like that, we do not have certain things in our control, give her to the staff they will take care of her. After thinking for sometime I gave her to the staff member, I asked him if I could adopt her for which he said yes you could but there are formalities for that,I saw her attachment for you, she must have found some sort of solace in you, she lost everyone in her family in an accident when she was in her relative's home, they admitted her here since they were not able to take care of her, you should be able to spend time for her, you might have got affected temporarily but you should be able to care for her life long otherwise it will not be fruitful, If you wish you could come here daily and spend some time with her and get close to her then we shall see. I stayed there for the next one hour fed the girl some food and made her to sleep again. My friend forced me to eat something but I didn't feel like that so I said sorry and left the orphanage".
I was crying all night and I couldn't fall asleep. I was thinking how I would be able to bring her up alone that too if I go for a job, would it be possible for me to spend time with her?. Then, I thought about your proposal, I didn't reject your proposal purposefully, my life took unexpected turns when my father died in an accident, I had to shoulder my family when I was 19, I dropped out of college and took up a job but earnings from my job was not sufficient to support my family so I was forced to take up prostitution but it was not an easy thing to do, it tested my patience, my physical and mental strength. Till then I was thinking that men would be gentle but the way they used me and the language they used changed my perception about men after I entered that world, drunk men looking at me as a pleasure vending machine, most of them behaved like beasts. I was deeply hurt, each passing day was like a journey in the hell. I like you, in fact I love you, but I don't want you to suffer in your life. you are rich, intelligent,smart and gentle, no girl would reject your proposal except me. I have lost interest in sex, I don't think I will be able to satisfy your needs, you have to sacrifice certain things in life but you deserve a better life,post marriage, if any of your friends or family member comes to know my past we will be in a predicament, you find a girl another of your choice, get married and live happily. I just need you to support me financially, give me job in your company with work from home option to adopt the girl that I met in the orphanage . Could you do that?.
Have you forgotten everything that happened?. you are so special to me because you gave this man a new lease of life, when no one was ready to help me when I didn't have anything to eat and lying on a roadside for about 36 hours after fainting, you came forward and helped me, admitted me in a hospital and helped me to regain my lost life. you spoke to me a lot to overcome loneliness, consoled me and gave me confidence to come out of the situation. you arranged a place for me to stay, arranged a job for me to survive on my own. I may be a successful business man now, but Without you, I would not be alive today. you have become everything for me, every other person in my life is after you. I am able understand everything now, I thought you didn't love me, I thought that I have mistaken you, I liked the way you cared for me, you were with me during my testing times but when it is time to enjoy the fruits of my labor, you are moving away from me. Sex is just for reproduction if there was no need for reproduction, if men and women were created to be immortal there would not have existed a thing called sex. I think human beings have reproduced enough. I don't think I will not be able to live without having sex. All I have to offer you is love, pure, pristine love, there is no place for lust in that, you are the purpose of my, I will do anything for you, I swear that I will be able to heal your past wound. I just want to be with you even if that means losing every other thing that I have. Come we shall get married adopt her and shower her with the love she is longing for. Don't speak anything, I don't think that there is any other thing to speak further. Give me your consent lets start our journey with her.
She gave me her consent after that, we have been married for 3 three years. Our daughter Aaradhana is 6 years old now. we are a family of three and living a life filled with love and joy.
Thank you for reading..........
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